On the other hand...

... maybe I did disappear.

I just haven't really known what to say.

Had some craziness going on, the holidays, family visits, and most recently, a couple tooth extractions. All fun.

Did well over the holidays, but I've still been sitting at the mid 180's for over a month now. Bleh. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of Dukan. Idk if I should stick it out, or what. I've recently been turned on to a keto diet (sometimes known as caveman diet, very similar to paleo). It sounds crazy, but every day I see more and more success stories from people with a whole lot more weight to lose than I.  And it looks much, much tastier than Dukan, that's for damn sure.

http://www.reddit.com/help/faqs/keto

If you're interested.

Bootcamp ended today. I definitely feel more mobile, a little more agile, and even a little bit faster. I really enjoyed it, in hindsight. In the class, I was always fucking dying.

I'm so dramatic.

But seriously, I never sweat that much playing softball out in the heat and humidity. Bootcamp was hard. I'll definitely miss it.

I feel smaller, but the scale doesn't seem to think so. My boyfriend notices. He said he forgot I had a tattoo on my hip. Well I hope I'm not so raging fat anymore that he forgets about my tattoos, lol.

Though, honestly, I forgot about it myself. I wouldn't mind a new, prettier one, right on top of that one. Maybe when I deserve and can afford rewards :)

Also been doing C25K, for longer than it would seem. I have to keep restarting because I miss days due to various reasons. Right now it's my teeth that's holding me back, but I did bootcamp today and it was fine, so I should be able to run tomorrow. I've been running outside, in the snow, and with my dog. All things I never thought I would do. And you know what.. it's not hard. I don't hate it.

It's a god damned revelation, it is.

So from the beggining of bootcamp to the end, plus the running on the side, I went from not being able to run a tenth of a mile w/o stopping, to being able to run two, almost three tenths of a mile w/o stopping.

Finally, the sweet, sweet taste of tangible progress.

I did not disappear

I feel badly, I haven't posted in a while. Well, I'm back. It wasn't that there wasn't anything going on, just that I didn't have much to say about it.

In reality, there's been a lot going on. Too much, if you ask me. Usually I'm one to vent, and obviously, I appreciate an audience. Lately, though, everything was too close to home and I've been really frustrated and not interested in opening up the issues to interpretation.

As far as the diet and everything goes, I think I'm back on the horse. I didn't gain anything, but I've been sitting at187 or so for this whole month and it's time to get back in gear. I signed up for MyFitnessPal, and I'm using that in conjunction with the Dukan Diet. Also, bootcamp is kicking my ass, in a good way. It's hard, and when I get in there and I see those boys who run it... I wanna kill them. But they're nice, and the class is as hard as it should be, and hopefully I see results when it's over. By that time, school will have started and I will still be working out 3x a week, if not more. I haven't started the Couch-2-5k thing yet. Why? Because I hate running, that's why.

But I've seen so many people who have done it and it's been remarkable for them, so I should try it. Also I'm interested in weight lifting, especially squats, and I need overall muscle tone. So hopefully the classes I'm taking will help me to this end but if not, I will at least be losing the weight and can focus on the tone and definition later.

Happy new year! I hope you make it take you where you want to go.